Currently Under Construction!
While grieving as a mother for about 11 months I have discovered how much strength I really have. It's so difficult to say that I grew this strength through losing my own daughter, my heart & soul. Night's like these I try to hold on to my memories of her, how she loved to babble to the TV even though they obviously weren't talking to her. How much she was in love with her baths & would yell at us as soon as she saw her towel coming towards her. That every time I took off her socks her little toes would cling to the lint and have this odd babyish smell of vinegar. When I would attempt to get shoes on her, scrunching her toes up was enough to keep those shoes off. I absolutely missed when someone else had her, she would follow me around the room with her eyes, she knew who I was, that I was her mommy. I never regret the type of mom I was & still am to her, I breastfed her & did it in public with no fear, I never allowed her to cry herself to exhaustion, I carried her as much as she wanted as often as she wanted, I co-slept with her because that's what made her & I happy and that's what she & I both wanted. I could care less if that's a problem to anyone, I was the best mother I could be to my daughter & that will NEVER change. She will forever know my love for her no matter how far apart we are. She lived her life full of happiness & love. Sometimes I don't know how I'm still standing. She's the reason why I became a better person, and an amazing mother. She continues to make me a stronger person everyday by reminding me of that unconditional love ♥
My name is Christine, on May 18th I took a PT just on a whim due to the fact that my periods do come 1 week to 1 week & a half late. Surely, in less then a minute that test changed my life. On June 9th, I was confirmed to be pregnant with my first baby! She was not planned but is not a mistake. I share my life with the most amazing guy I have ever met, Jeffrey. He has stood by my side for 2 years & I have stood by his. We now share the most amazing thing we have ever had, our baby girl that we can't wait to meet!
Feel free to PM me or PT me, just be sure to say hi!
Knitting For Kairi
I started a Etsy shop of knitted goods for babies in dedication to my daughter, Kairi. Everything earned goes into her piggy bank to save for her future brother(s) sister(s), were wanting to put those funds towards a SIDS smart monitor and other things things as well. Please take a look at what I have to offer. I do welcome custom orders!
♥ (Under Construction due to BG)
May 18th, 2011:
Took first & second PT's both were positive.
May 19th, 2011:
Took one more PT and was also positive!
June 9th, 2011:
First prenatal appointment. Pap smear, pelvic exam, etc. Also confirmed to be pregnant! Uterus was a little swollen but everything else was fine.
June 21st, 2011:
First ultrasound, due to side pains. All was well also got to hear her heartbeat for the first time
July 7th, 2011:
Another ultrasound, measured the baby. She measured me as 11 weeks instead of 12 weeks and & 5 days. New due date: January 26, 2012.
August 30th, 2011:
She weighs in at 9 Ounces! Feet are 3 Cm big