Hi.. My name is Ashlie Anderson and I am married to a wonderful man Zachary Anderson. January 2 2012 I gave birth to my son when I was 22 weeks. He was a still born and that was the hardest day of my life. His original due date was May 10th so just next month.. I am having a really hard time with the loss of my dear Aidan. Then just 1 week ago we found out that we are pregnant. I was taking the highest dose of birth control and never missed one dose always at 6 pm every day... I was not ready for this to happen because my son just left us 3 months ago. There is a part of me so very excited, but the other bigger part is so scared, hurt, mad, sad, etc. I am just looking for friends that may understand what this is like. This baby will be due December 13 2012, so in a way its funny because my first born was born the first month of the year and my second will be born the last month of the year. It is so bitter sweet!!!!

I have had 3 miscarriages before my dear Aidan. In 2007, 2008, and 2009.. I consider all 4 of my children that have gone to Heaven to still be my children!! I am a mother of 4 and one day will get to hold all of them in my arms again!!!

Aidan Wayne Anderson January 2 2012!!! While I held him and cried Jesus Christ held him and smiled!!!!!
" />OUR SON AIDAN THE DAY OF HIS FUNERAL WITH A PICTURE OF MOMMY AND DADDY!!!!!!!

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OUR DEAR SON AIDAN WAYNE ANDERSON

your little aiden was beautiful Ashlie. im so sorry for your loss. just know hes always around you... as far as religeon goes i really dont have one but I do believe in there is a god and that we all have spirits after we die.. I do have a story that i want to share with you later this week a few days after my cerclage ( im short on time today) but long story short, i saw my diceased grandpa,aunt,grandma and uncle all with my daughter after i lost her... about a week after... i was sitting in bed wide awake crying and then my body went numb and i could not move or speak. i could only blink and even that was hard kind of. I saw them all around me in my room and they were using there brains to transfer thoughts to me (a wierd communication that was hard to explain) but they wanted me to know that she was okay and happy and not alone.. i want you to know your aiden okay too and he will always love his mommy. Just like my trinity will always love me. stay strong, i have a feeling this pregnancy will be great for you <3