We just found out that we're expecting! We aren't sure EXACTLY how far along I am, but this ticker is according to my LMP. Appointment on May 9th with the gyno.


~1-4 weeks~ Complete! <3
~5-8 weeks~ Complete! <3
~9-13 weeks~ BAKING! <3

~14-17 weeks~ Pre-Heating!
~18-21 weeks~ Pre-Heating!
~22-26 weeks~ Pre-Heating!

~27-30 weeks~ Pre-Heating!
~31-35 weeks~ Pre-Heating!
~36-40 weeks~ Pre-Heating!




Hey there, and welcome to my page! First off let me tell you that I am pansexual and gender-queer. What is that, you ask? Well, pansexual means that I don't care if you're a man, a woman or transgendered; if I'm attracted to you, I'm attracted to you! I don't discriminate and I am attracted to all genders! As for gender-queer, it means that I am not 100% female, and I am not 100% male. Physically I am a female, and I was born a female. But some days I dress and act and feel like a woman, other times I dress, act and feel like a man.



I am currently with the most wonderful man that I have ever met, he is my dream partner. I am undergoing fertility testing (I had 3 miscarriages) to find out if I am barren. It has been a struggle to start a family together, and he wants to try for a summer baby (I personally don't care when I conceive, as long as I do!).



I am an ordained high priestess. My hobbies include gardening, writing, making art (drawing, poems, stories, lyrics, painting, etc.), cycling, hiking, exploring, traveling, nature and animals. I raised/bred rats for about a year, and it's time for my adult rats to take a break. I have a 5-year-old male tuxedo kitty named Slayer that keeps me company. At the moment I am knitting things to donate to hospitals (baby things, keepsakes for families of pregnancy loss), while the career counselor and I figure out how I will get into school. I have suffered a miscarriage very recently, and having done everything that I could to validate my baby's life and honor their passing, I have been trying to keep busy by doing positive things to give back to my community. As an ordained high priestess, I offer my services to perform memorial services for pregnancy loss, as it is not really offered where I live. I figure that volunteering and making things to help others heal, is a lot better than to wallow in misery and depression in my room over my baby. I made a promise to my baby that I would make him/her proud. I am now on that path, and I intend to keep my promise.




My woman and I have decided that I should go on birth control until my body fully heals from my miscarriage, and until I am emotionally ready again. Update: turns out that I need to stay off of birth control for fertility testing. I also want to finish school and get a career before trying again. I want to be doing something that I love and have some money aside to spend on baby things, you know? So far all of my friends and family are supporting this decision.



I'm overweight. I forgive too easily. I give people the benefit of the doubt. I let things slide. I give second chances. I'm over-protective. I'm co-dependent. I'm a nymphomaniac. I rap. I sing. I dance. I write poems. I write stories. I cry. I yell. I defend myself. I defend the ones I love. I care about other people. I have feelings. I have compassion. I am not capable of hating someone, but I am capable of holding a strong grudge over someone who hurt someone I love. I am opinionated, yet open-minded. I accept that you have a right to your opinion, but if you direct hate towards me for what I cannot help, that is a different story. I have a past, as does everyone, but it helped shaped me today. And sometimes, it takes the worst pain to bring about the best change.

The tree I planted for my angel baby, rest in peace little one.

We have recently suffered a pregnancy loss. We are devastated and are holding on tight to each other to get through this. We did everything we could to give our baby a dignified ceremony that honors his.her passing and validates his or her life. It is hard because our loved ones don't know what to say or do and are saying offensive things without meaning to. But we are trying our best.



This loss has been devastating for me. Thanks to the numerous things that I have survived in my past, I am strong enough to survive this, I know I am. I will use my grief to drive me to put my life on the right track. After the memorial and all of the things for my baby are done and my physical healing is done (since the emotional healing will take more time than the physical), I will make an appointment to see the orientation social worker who will give me a test to see what career would be the best suited for me (I could never make up my mind, I want to learn so much!). We will see also what I can and cannot do, and I will do some soul-searching to see what my true passion is. Then, I will look into colleges and apply for student loans and student financial aid to help me go through it. Once I get accepted, which I know I will, I will begin school and give it all that I've got, work as hard as I can to make my angel baby and my family proud. I want to have a rock-solid career once I graduate, and once I am in a house with a good income and my woman and I are legally married in Canada, we will try for a baby again if my doctor gives me the okay. That is my plan for right now, and it's a damn good one if I do say so myself. Look out, world....this woman is getting even stronger. Nothing can stop me~♥





I am opinionated and I stand by what I believe in. I am PRO-CHOICE, feminist, pro-LBGT rights, pro-animal rights, anti-war but I support the troops. I will add more as I remember it. I love my family, they are my rock and my world. I have a few close friends, but that's all you really need. I work as a telemarketer (yes, I am that annoying person that calls you to sell my boss's product!) and I walk there 45 mins each day and back. I have two tattoos and 11 piercings, with more to come of each. I believe that body modification is beautiful, and there is nothing wrong with it. I believe in tattoo acceptance in the workplace. Men can have a full sleeve and have no problem getting a job, but a woman; forget it. It's not right.



Important events:

March 1st, 2012: AF
March 16th 2012: baby-danced
March 31st, 2012: BFP via blood test, hcg 180.7
April 1st, 2012: HPT BFP, First Response Gold Digital
April 19th, 2012: First appointment with the gyno! Went with baby's godmom
April 20th, 2012: First ultrasound with the baby's godmom! Heartbeat 121 bpm!
May 16th, 2012: Second appointment with the gyno. Heard heartbeat, 135 bpm!
May 21st, 2012: Miscarriage and d&c       hcg at 2559
May 29th, 2012: Baby's memorial service.
May 30th, 2012: Planted a tree in honor of my baby.
June 16th, 2012: Nearly-positive OPK! My cycle is getting back on track! Baby-danced
June 18th, 2012: Appointment with the gyno. Ordered fertility testing.
July 1st, 2012: Moving out
July 5th, 2012: AF :/
July 11th, 2012: Started taking Yaz
August 25th, 2012: Stopped taking Yaz, doctor's orders
September 24th 2012: AF
October 2012: AF the 24th
November 2012: No AF???
December 2012: Rowan's due date :/ RIP little bean <3 AF on the 7th
January 2013: AF on the 6th, became a self-employed breeder
February 2013: Boyfriend "unofficially" moved in. No AF.
March 2013: It's been a year since Rowan was conceived <3 spotting on 28th
May 1st 2013: Boyfriend moving in officially. GOT AN ULTRASOUND!
May 9th, 2013: Appointment with the gyno
January 2nd, 2014: Baby's due date!!!

yes that's totally fine