Hi im sammi im 19 years old n should have my first baby in october before my 20th birthday  ... i never thought i was going to have kids to be honest i didnt think much about it besides when my period wasnt on time i never worried much. At the time i thought if it happens it happens im in love nothing can go wrong... after a year with my ex we planned to get married before he went off to the army and than have kids so i got on birth controle! we hit a bad patch in our relationship he started drinking again it wasnt the first time the whole year now that i think about it was a lie n a game to him n when i started opening my eyes i didnt want to beleave it... i started doing things i shouldnt have drinking and popping pills everytime we got into a fight cuz i guess i wanted to piss him off... it worked he started acting normal again and than two months later i went in for my yearly check on valentines day and they did a test just to make sure.. i didnt think anything of it cuz i still had a week left before i exspected it. But i knew something wasnt right when the docter looked up at me after checking out the test strip. i almost feel to my knees crying... at first i thought why me i have to do somehting then i freaked out i even thought about that this was a living thing inside me. As a valentines day gift i gave him a teddy bear and the peace of paper stasting i was 4 weeks along or so. The next day i caught him cheating with an underage girl and havnt seen him sence. But that doesnt stop him from stressing me out every day... guess i should stop there the thing is hes out of her life intill court that is and im a single mom i went from being a party girl heading on the wrong path to mommy to be in less than a week. Its hard im only 19 i wish i waited longer but im glad. She my little gift my angel if it wasnt for her idk where i would be right now...