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I am going to be a 17 year old mother of two this May. When i first found out i was pregnant of course i fliped out but in the end im so happy that i decided to keep my baby boy... because i already have a girl. So now i have the best of both worlds. I have been having a hard pregnancy and the day after i found out i was pregnant i also found out that i would have to raise this child alone. I have one true friend since i had my baby girl we dont hang out much but she still seems to care about me and if anything it seems like im in love with her... (but im not) lol just thought that should be added. I still live with my mom and if it wasn't for her being disabled she wouldnt keep me around, but I know that she loves me and she adores her grandchildren. Even though i have fucked up so many times in my life she still supports me and i dont know how she does it. Even I dont have half the mind to keep me around. I hope to one day that i get to look back on this and say that was the hardest time of my life but i know I wont be able to. What is the hardest part of being a mother? I dont think there is just one. The first day of school, the first sleep over away from home, the first dance when you realize that your baby is growing up, the first car,(which i hope nothing happens to) the first boyfriend, the first day of college, the day you see your little girl walk down the isle or see your baby boy stand at the alter. These are just a few things that are hard for a mother when she knows that they are growing up and there is nothing she can do about it. All we want is the best for our children, but sometimes its hard to let go because you have been there for everything. One day your holding this brand new beautiful baby and the next their all grown up. They may say they dont need you for anything, but in truth they do. They need you to tell them that everything will be fine, even when its not so that at least there is hope because with out hope we have nothing.

In my mind there is more than just god himself. We as mothers who have created another life are gods in our childrens eye's. For that i am a proud mother. I make mistakes but as long as I at least try to make them rightI know that I am the best I can be.

wow, you've had it hard. But it'll be okay as long as you make it that way. Pave the way for your children by showing them how to make no matter what life bring you. Although you have two now doesn't mean you have to allow that to hold you back. Just keep your head held high and do not allow anyone no matter who it is bring you down. Be there for them and do all that you can to show them the way to success.