june 8th sunday morning4 days past my due date at 4am i woke up w/a little trickle between my legs i sat up and told my boyfriend "rob. my water" and he goes "hmm" like an " o thats nice" type of hmm lol so i go " ROB my WATER" lol that got his attention. i went to the bathroom and then came the big gush so we packed everything up and went to the hospital.
when i got there i was a 3. 2cm larger than i was a couple days earlier at my 41 week apt. i wasnt having any contractions they mentioned pitocin and i let them know right away i did NOT want pitocin so i walked and walked, took a bath and a few hours later i was almost a 4, a few MORE hours later i was still a 4 they told me i was on a time limit i have 24 hours after my water broke to have this baby especially becuz im strep b posittive so they put me on pitocin and it was like a train hit me my contractions became so painful i thought i was going to loos my mind for hours and hours and hours i was having contractions back to back i couldnt even get a minute between them if i couldve gotten some time to collect myself between each contraction i may have not started screaming and crying and cursing and pleading . they told me that my contractions were measuring as strong as if i were 9 or 10cm i was completely effaced her head was all the way down annnnnnnd im still 4cm!!!!!!!!!!!
the doctor came in to talk to me about an epidural, i told her no way in hell and she explained that the clock was winding down and they wanted to give me an epidural to see if it would allow my body to relax enough to dilate and if not i would have to get a epidural in about an hour if i hadnt dilated by then to get a csection. so they gave me the epidural and ill admit it was like night and day my contractions were gone i felt nothing and even got a little rest thats wen things got scary.
some nurses came in an put in iternal moniter on her head to moniter her heart beat and the next thing i know everyone is yelling get the turb get the turb! they put me on my hands and knees to reposition the baby cuz her heart rate had gone way down next thing i know doctors are running in and out of the room they give me a shot of turb and one of the nurses came to my ear and started going explaining the procedures for an emergency c section. i was having insanely strong contractions back to back that i couldnt even feel and my poor baby couldnt even get a chance to recover from them. luckily the shot they gave me stopped my contractions and her heart rate wen to normal. they checked me again and i was ALMOST a 5! my doctor told me she would give it a little bit more time but it was looking like i would have to have a csection after 16 hours of the most intense painful labor, i was so disapointed in myself i tried so hard for my baby to have a natural safe healthy labor for my baby but the towel had to be thrown in. i wasnt dilating.
they prepped my bf and i and we went into surgery they csection felt like i was in a horror movie i could feel every thing except it didnt hurt and i couldnt move my boyfriend kept his face next to mine and i broke it down for him "theyre cutting me open" "theyre stretching me open" alot of pulling alot of tugging then it felt and sounded like someone had dropped a large water balloon over my stomache and finally the cry!! i smiled so big at rob "thats my baby girl!" rob peeked around the sheet "shes got alot of hair!!!" he got up and started running back and forth telling me wat she looked like and dancing finally after wat felt like FOREVER he brought her over to me, she was so beautiful i wanted to jsut grab her but my damn arms were strapped down! so i sat there as patiently as i could as she stared and stared at her daddy she kept sticking her tounge straight out just like in the ultra sound! finally after wat seemed like hours and hours of stitching i got to hold my baby and OH MY GOD is she gorgeous she is o perfect and precious i lover her more than i knew it was possible to love

i mean the money is really gonna help but i cant stand to leave her!