Found out im not pregnant   Doctor doesnt know why AF hasnt showed up yet.

Hey, im Rachael and im 18 years old. I joined baby gaga in November 2007 with my first pregnancy  . Sadly, i lost that baby at 11 weeks.   I have a lovely baby niece, Sophia. She's such a cutie pie. I have a nephew one the way! His name is Connor and he's due on August 20th!Anyways, i love to talk and i do make things for people if you're nice. Lol. Im still in the process of learning how to do everything and i desperatly want Photo Shop *drools* Lol.
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RIP - My little Angel - Was Due July 27th, 2008 :
When my boyfriend and i found out i was pregnant we were extremely excited. Yes, we were worried like any other young couple, but we couldnt wait to see our baby. Well i went to my first ultrasound at 11 weeks and i heard the dreaded words that no mother wants to here, "We cant seem to find the baby's heartbeat.". My ob gyn said i was either earlier than we expected or it was a miscarriage. I remember looking at my mom almost in tears saying, "It cant be a miscarriage, no possible way. I've done everything right." Well they trudged me down the hall to a more "advanced" machine as they called it. The lady who did the ultrasound didnt even talk to me and i sat there trying to look on the screen and see somthing, ANYTHING to prove it wasn't a miscarriage. Well i was walked back to my ob's office and i sat there with my mom for what seemed like forever. FINALLY the doctor came in and told me it was the beginning of a miscarriage. I couldn't believe it, i refused to believe it. My mom started bawling right away, much help she was. She showed me the ultrasound pictures and that's when i started to really cry hard. I could see my baby but there was no heartbeat. No nothing. It hurts like crazy but i know this had to of happened for a reason. It just wasnt meant to be i guess. I miss my baby and i think about her/him everyday.
What Makes a Mother? - Author Unknown
I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today.
I asked, ’What makes a Mother?’ and I know I heard Him say,
A mother has a baby, this we know is true,
But God, can you be a mother when your baby’s not with you?
Yes you can, He replied, with confidence in His voice
I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime, others for a day
And some I send to feel your womb, but there’s no need to stay.
I just dont understand this Lord, I want my baby here!
He took a breath and cleared His throat and then I saw a tear,
I wish the I could show you what your child is doing today,
If you could see your child smile with the other children and say.
’We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear,
My mummy loved me oh so much I got to come straight here.
I feel so lucky to have a mum who had so much love for me,
I learned my lessons very quickly, my mummy set me free.
I miss my mummy oh so much, but I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep, on her pillow’s where I lay,
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear,
Mummy don’t be sad today, I’m your baby and I’m here’.
So you see, my dear sweet one, your children are ok,
Your babies are here in my home, and this is where they’ll stay.
They’ll wait for you with me, until your lesson’s through,
And on the day I call you home they’ll be at the gates for you.
So now you know what makes a mother.
It’s the feeling in your heart,
Its the love you had so much of, right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realise until their time is done,
Remember all the love you have,
And you ARE a special mum!

LOL, idk never been there... but yeah at least we have carowinds && emerald pointe && some other stuff...