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This is baby Iris Olive♥
Born August 16th 2008 at 5:02pm 7lb 8oz 20 1/4in.♥
Hello I'm Tracy- I just had my 4th child, a baby girl. I've had 7 pregnancies so far. The first one my son Elliot I gave up for adoption in 1996 after I was raped by his biological father! He was born on May 10th I gave him up for adoption to a couple that could not have children of there own. His adoption was supposed to be open but they shut me out and changed his name. I have a lot of heartache over this. There is just not much I can do without causing further pain to myself an confusion for my son! Ian was with me through my whole pregnancy my labor and birth, he was the only one there through the painful adoption process. He is my rock! When I thought I might lose my mind over this, he reminded my heart what it means to be loved. I’m going to have 3 beautiful children because he wouldn’t let me feel worthless and alone, he fell in love with me and trapped my heart. He was relentless in his pursuit of me, this broken, pregnant man-hating girl, and I am so thankful for him. My heartaches about this every time I think about my son, and the “did I do the right thing” I could kill myself with that question! I welcome any interest you ladies may have, as it is because of the BG women I am able to post this at all! This is still a healing process for me and most likely will always be! As for my miscarried babies, there is Patch I lost him at 12weeks my angle baby he appeared to be perfect but something unseen was wrong. The second was at 9wks this was a belated ovum or a molar, ether way there was no baby, just a mass of twisted tissue. I have also nearly lost my son Caden to bacterial meningitis at 6 weeks, he contacted it from me after I tested positive for group B Strep. I’ve had GD (gestational diabetes) with one pregnancy, diet controlled. I’ve had 3 natural births with mid-wives and I highly recommend water laboring as a form of pain control. I’ve BF (breast feed) 3 kids that’s 6 years with one still attached, I fully believe in self weaning. My husband and I co-sleep with the baby, it works for us and I love it. I also cloth diaper my LO (little one) and wish I would have done this much sooner. I home school my oldest two kids, it keeps us together were we all want to be. We have so much fun in this house!! I love being a SAHM (stay at home mom)!Together Ian and I have a 6yr old son Caden and 4yr old daughter Lillian and our newest arrival Iris Olive born Aug. 16th. God willing we would love to have one more baby. Ian is now my husband of 4yr, we have been in a relationship for 13 years and going very strong. Good luck all you Mamas and Mamas to-be as well as Mamas TTC!! We are all powerful women in powerful bodies capable of powerful deeds; don’t let anyone take your power away.
☮ Tracy









Caden ♥
Lillian ♥
Iris
My husband Ian♥
12 years later an stil loving it!!♥






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