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☠ Tracy ☠

Hello I'm 31 and pregnant with my 3rd child a mystery baby. Although this is my 6th pregnancy. I gave my baby boy Elliot up for adoption in 1996 after I was raped! He was born on May 10th I gave him up for adoption to a wonderful dreamy eyed couple that could not have children of there own. He is now a happy 12yr old boy, well I hope he is happy. That’s the only problem I have with his adoption, it was supposed to be open but they shut me out and changed his name. I have a lot of heart ach over this. There is just not much I can do without causing further pain to myself an confusion for my son! Ian was with me through my whole pregnancy and my labor and birth he was the only one there through the painful adoption process. He is my rock! When I thought I might lose my mind over this, he reminded my heart what it means to be loved. I’m going to have 3 beautiful children because he wouldn’t let me feel worthless and alone, he fell in love with me and trapped my heart. He was relentless in his pursuit of me, this broken, pregnant man-hating girl, and I am so thankful for him. My heartaches about this every time I think about Elliot, and the “did I do the right thing” I know it was the best thing but was it "the right thing?" I could kill myself with that question! I welcome any questions you ladies may have, as it is because of the BG women I am able enough to post this at all! This is still a healing process for me and most likely will always be! As for my other babies there was Patch I lost him at 12weeks my angle baby he appeared to be perfect but something unseen was wrong. The second was at 9wks this was a belated ovum and there was no baby. Together Ian and I have a 5yr old son Caden and 3yr old daughter Lillian and our newest arrival Iris born Aug. 16th. Ian is now my husband of 3yr, we have been in a relationship for 12 years and going very strong. Good luck all you Mamas and Mamas to-be as well as Mamas TTC!! We are all powerful women in powerful bodies capable of powerful deeds; don’t let anyone take your power away.
☮ Tracy

♥ This is baby Iris Olive♥ Born August 16th 2008 at 5:02pm 7lb 8oz 20 1/4in.♥






Caden ♥ Lillian ♥ Iris



My husband Ian♥



Ian ☮autumn 06

Thanks....I will pass it on at leats someone will give him a happy fathers day something LMAO....Oh that is sooooooo sweet that you are getting re-married...hey maybe Joel and I will be married by then LOL...he wants too I am scared... Good job BF...I am jelous I just couldnt with Ella due to her tongue...shitty reason I know but it was just soooo hard... So any news on #5 yet??? We so have to be preggers together again LMAO...