I am the mother of three girls ages 6, 4, and 2. I lost my liltle baby girl July 26. I went to Ld due to my water breaking early I was 30 weeks. They kept me on strict bedrest for a week. I told them that I thought they should induce as all the signs the doctors told me I was having, fluid smelling bad,pain in the abdomen,leaking the fluid constantly,ect. They did not listen and they even took me off the monitors. I was put on them 2 times a shift for an hour. A shift was 7 to 7. On the 25 of July I called the nurse to put me on the contraction monitor because I was having strong contractions. They couldnt find her heartbeat, I knew something was wrong I even almost walked out because the Doctors wouldn't listen. I gave birth to her July 26 2008 at 9:15 am. I never got to look into her eyes. Everybody tells me that I have an angel now but I dont want an angel I want my baby. Words cant explain how I feel and I will never get over it. She weighed 3.2 lbs and was perfect. Its not fair or right. I know GOD has plans but I dont want to wait to see her. Stay strong everybody says. She is watching you from heaven. I am so hurt and confused. My baby girl lost her life before she even took a breath. I went to the hospital to get the records and every ultrasound they did said to little fluid. Not enough to be measured. Why wasnt she taken out of me I was not the best for her at the time. I am so sorry if I sound mad but I am. I am so sorry for not being strong you lose your baby. I am what I have to be for my family but when they are not around I sink. I have the best family and friends and without them I dont know what I would do. If anybody wants to help me through this please do. I know other mothers have gone through this and I would love to hear what they do to get through it. 



I just wanted to tell each and every lady thank you, you guys have made this easier to deal with. I am so sorry for all the ladies that have gone through the same or similar situation. I wish this pain on nobody and it sucks that you all have to go through it.





When I feel the hurt and pain I just say this... Baby girl you will never have o feel the pain and suffering of this world....I think God for this.




             


Almost a year after I lost my baby angel.....I found out I am having another baby!!!! I couldnt be more happy yet scared=)

I am very sorry for your lose of your daughter i know how you feel i lost my son on the 24th of January 2008 i know the pain you are going through and how you feel about. i go through the same pain every day and i some times i wish it would go away but i dont want it to go away i just want to be with my son but my baby girl needs me here at the moment. If you ever need to talk darl i am always here for you. take care talk soon. xox