We're still TTC...still, yes still. I've got endometriosis and after an unsuccessful laparoscopy, we went to see an RE (reproductive endocrinologist-fertility specialist). Being in our prime (Ryan's only 23), we shouldn't be having these problems...but we are. After lots of tests, the RE determined that everything looks fine and that we should just stop charting and give it time. We're also considering adoption, but since we're young, most agencies won't even look at our applications.

We lost our first child on April 4th, 2008 at 6 weeks gestation. It was a boy, I just know it.

Ryan and I were married on May 22nd, 2008. We planned to have a public ceremony, but opted instead to renew our vows in a beach ceremony. I was a full-time student, but am now a full-time nanny. Ryan, being the awesome husband that he is, supports us while I bring in the supplemental income.

My husband is my life. He may irritate me at times and we have good with bad, but we're married and that means forever. We've been through a lot the past few months, including a separation and discussions of divorce, but we're in marriage counseling and we've both decided we're in it for the long haul. He's my best friend and my favorite person in the world and I love knowing that he's going to be there when I fall asleep every night and when I wake up the next morning.

I'm a Christian and I fully believe that my baby is with God right now. I am trying to live my life according to God's plan and by His principles, but that gets hard. We pride ourselves on being Christian and trying to stick to those values.

Life is amazing right now and it's hard to believe that I'd be saying that after losing my baby, but I know things will continue to get better.

I'm a shopaholic and love to buy things. I'm loud, opinionated and outgoing. I can be a real bitch if provoked or if I'm just in a bad mood, but I've got a good heart and I'll support you if you genuinely need it. And we breed geckos. The end...I think.

I've been a couple times and everything I have had has been excellent. Plus the view is amazing!