Well, I guess I know why I got so angry. I was about eight weeks pregnant and had no idea until last Tuesday, when I suffered my second loss. Not sure how I feel about it. Its a weird feeling. I was not attached to this baby because I didnt know it was in there but I am sad because I feel like I never got the chance to get excited about this baby. I just dont know what to feel right now. I have always been one of these people that knew I was pregnant like two days after it happened (well not two days, but you know what I mean) but this time, I hadnt even missed a period. I just dont know what to think. I have been smoking and drinking and jogging and weight lifting. Did I do this? Did I make myself lose this baby? I feel horrible. I mean, we werent ready for another baby right now. Is it that part of me is, I dont know, relieved? Is it wrong of me that part of me is relieved?