I'm an 18 year old female who is pregnant with my first child. This was really unexpected because i was on implanon[birth control implant]. I'm a pre-med student, and i've decided that no matter what anyone says i'm gonna still become a doctor...even with a child. My baby's father is non-existent. He's irresponsible and immature, i should have never gotten back involved with him.

I was told when i was younger that i would never have kids because of some damage done to my uterus, so to me my baby is more than a blessing, he's a miracle. The Dr told me that i'm at risl for miscarriage during the 1st trimester...but i swear i'm gonna do whatever it takes to make sure my baby get's here happy and healthy.

I really think that it's a boy, his name is gonna be Jabri Dai'trell Rankin





[his(or her) 1st pic]

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Letters i wrote to my Baby

[5 14 08]
I really believe that u r a boy LoL. I Love you already. Everynight before i go to sleep i rub my stomach and talk to you. You mean everything to me already. I can't promise that i'll be perfect when you get here, but i'll try my best. It's gonna be hard 4 the both of us and i'm sorry 4 that, but mommy's doin this parenting thing alone, and i'm not gonna beg your father to be in your life. But you have a wonderful grandmother and i thank God 4 her everyday, she must be an angel in disguise. So you don't have to worry about feeling unloved. You also have wonderful God Mothers and a wonderful auntie that love you already. As for you father, baby boy when you get older, don't hate him, jus shower him with kindness and love and try to understand that he's stuck on stupid and parked on dumb.

I ♥ YoU

[5 29 08]

Hi baby, i still can't believe i have something as special as you growing inside of me, but i am so excited. I Promise i'm gonna love you more than enough. You'll never want for anything and i'm gonna protect you with my life. I'll do anything for you once you get here. I'm only 8 weeks right now and you already my everything. Ypur the reason i go on each day. Sometimes you scare me b/c my stomach will start hurtin real bad and i get scared b/c the dr. in Bk said we might not make it through the first trimester. But baby, i know we will. I wouldn't be able to live if i lost my little angle [Y♥U]. I want you to remember your more than a blessing your a miracle. And as you get older i don't want you to feel badb/c ur daddy is an idiot, b/c i promise you i'll make up 4 all of his stupidity. Your not even gonna miss him. I ♥ yu so much. N right now i'm pretty sure u a boy b/c my hair is growin and my booty iz gettin flat. and jus like aunty whitney was wit ya kuzo ahmad, im not showin jus yet, im jus gettin round. but ima go......O and if u are a boy your name is Jabri Dai'trell Rankin
I Love you so much!


[06 10 2008] 4:30PM
Hi baby.....Today woulda made 10 weeks. I woke up this morning hurtin and clottin, so i went to the hospital where my worst fears where confirmed. Even though i never met you i miss you. You where all that i had, and since i know there is n more you, i feel like a part of me has died too. But i feel better knowing that your in Heaven, smiling down on me, where your healthy and happy. The doctors said maybe there was something wrong with your development....idk...i think maybe you just decided you wanted to go back home and be with God, where you can watch over me. You were at 9weeks+ development so that mean u left me sometime recently. I just want you to know i love you still and i will never forget you. You have your wings now...so spread them and fly away!<br>






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