Pregnant with my first child, and left to do it all alone! Guys these days sheesh! Thankfully I have a real supportive family that has been helping me cope. At 26 I feel more prepared to do this, scared but yet excited!
So with that I'll add I've been told I have a heart of gold and beside my tough break with Baby daddy I feel blessed. I think and truly believe that everything happens for a reason. I also believe in kharma what goes around truly does come around. So may God help the father of my child and hopefully one day my heart can forgive him. Outside of that I did the responsible thing and kept my child aside from the wishes of his/her father. I take my full resonsibility for the choice I made in not taking any kind of birth control and for the outcome. The scariest thing I did was tell my Mom.I've never been one to be so careless and thank god I ended up pregnant rather the all the bad diseases you can catch from not having protection and to end with a bright note I'm glad to have a family like I do without that I would have completely crumbled!
So far according to my last u/s it looks like it's a girl!!!
Lilly Rose was born on Dec. 21st, 2008 at 6:15 am via c- section. By far the scariest time i have ever been threw but all my sacrifices were well worth it i love my little girl. She's soooooooooooo cute and perfect!!!
I don't know how much bigger my heart can get full of love for my beautiful baby girl! It's a tough road I have ahead of me, my mom asked me a few days ago what I'm going to tell my baby when she gets odler and asks about her dad. If I'm lucky she'll be old enough to be told the true story of what happened. Mommy was dumb. Daddy was too scared and didn't stick around for anything. He had his fun and went on his way. I hope nd prey my daughter never suffers what I have. Again I say for me she was worth every last tear!
Here she is after being a couple hours away from birth.
2 weeks and 2 days 1/5/09
