I am a 21 year stay at home mommy to a beautiful 19 month old son, Jaxon. I've been with my fiance for 3 years and we are planning on getting married in the summer of 09. On May 15th we found out we are expecting our second baby!! We always knew we wanted our kids to be close in age, so even though it was a little bit of a surprise, it was a very welcome one. This pregnancy has definatley been a rollar coaster for us. Physically and emotionally it has been much harder than my first. On August 15th we had a routine ultrasound to find out the babies sex. We were a little shocked, but very happy to hear that we are having another boy!! We thought for sure he was a girl since things have been the extreme opposite this time.
Mason Samuel is due January 8th, 2009, and destined to be our angel baby. At our ultrasound the technician called in the doctor to confirm a few "markers" she had noticed. We were told our little man has severe brain and heart defects and wouldn't live long after birth. The doctor recommended an induction, and did an amnioscintesis. 4 days prior to my ultrasound my mid-wife did the quad-screen blood work to check for any risk factors of genetic defects. On Monday the 18th she called to say the results had come back showing our baby has trisomy 18. Later that evening the other doctor called to confirm that our amnioscintesis showed the same results. Wednesday the 20th we had a second opinion ultrasound and were told all of the same things. Mason has a 75% chance of living till full term, a 50% chance of survivng labor and delivery and the rest is still a mystery. The most time were told we will have with him is a few hours, to a couple days, and thats really wishful thinking.
We have chosen to ride things out and let him pass when it's his time. I hope and pray every day that I can carry my son till full term and see him through a live birth. I know I wont be able to take my angel baby home like we had been planning, but I want the chance to meet him alive and hold him and love him as long as I can.

Just really depressed and anxious, stuck at home with the two kids and had to run around all morning to get no where.Whats up with you?