maybe it's kind of "petty" but I want reason to have graphics about how much I love my son or daughter, how they're my whole world && how all the hard moments and lack of sleep is driving me crazy; but it's worth everything to see them stare back at me and smile, and know that no matter what, they're safe. I want to look someone in the eyes and see not only myself and my angel, but a better version of both of us..a potential that outshines either of ours<3. I'm still waiting.....and in all honesty it kills me, I never realized I could feel this incomplete because I'm not a mommy yet, and because people around me are. because people get pregnant all the time, when they don't want to, or when they'd have an abortion, etc. and here I am, not perfect, but trying my best and I still can't see to have it yet. :[




I'm with the love of my life. my soulmate && best friend && everything...and more. he completes me, for real; he IS my other half. and I couldn't be happier =). My baby really is everything to me- he taught me to see love again, to see beauty and appreciate the relevance of pain without feeling overwhelmed by it.

our love is forever && beyond that.








I want 4 eventually (5 including Nick).

--------------------------------------------&hearts;
Brian Andrew



my soulmate and other half and everything...my angel Brian :]








I love him so much. I know he's not [technically] my son but it's hard to explain how much it feels like it. his smile just melts me && seeing him upset breaks my heart a little.I just love seeing him learn things and try new things & like them, just little things  .








RIP Emma Lynn<333 you're missed so much every second of every day angel, I won't pretend to understand why we never got to hold you, or see your face, but somehow I do...everytime I close my eyes.

lol yeah of course! my favorite holiday! i was sad it was over. we went trick or treating at my sisters. i stole abit of candy too lol.