I am a simply kind of mom, not too extreme but not too laid back! Carson has changed my perspective on motherhood---theres no way in hell one way is right for all children, because they are simply TOO different! Therefore my parenting techniques you may view as wrong are just that mine! NOT YOURS! So, instead of convincing me to change my horrible ways, lets talk about something else! OK?!?!?!
........ CARSON!!!! And his labor story!
I went into the hospital at 7 am Wednesday july 14th 2010 for my scheduled c-section. They tell you to eat light the day before a c-section....well, i ate light then threw up everything (nerves) so i literally had an empty stomach!! Anyway, they finally took me back to the OR around 9:55 and started to give me the spinal block... OKAY, NO ONE told me a spinal block numbs you from freaking head to toes, not just below the waist!! So, my legs went numb and I got all happy because that meant it was working and i would be awake for this birth- but then my chest started going numb, then my arms, and last but not least my head! I thought I couldnt breath...and started to freak out!! Semi screaming because I thought I couldnt breath! My doctor came to me and put on hand on me arm and said YOU JUST NEED TO STOP, YOU ARE FINE! and then brought my husband back to reassure me everything was okay... so i settled down and we processed...at 10:12 am the doctor said, "well, he isnt bald and he definitely isnt small" And then i heard it.... the best little squeak in the world... My son Carson James was here all 8 pounds 8 oz, 20 3/4 inches of him! I didnt really know what to say or think when my husband showed him to me...but in the recovery room when i finally held him ( i wouldnt hold him in the OR because I was scared I would drop him) I just cried! And realized I AM FINALLY A NORMAL EVERYDAY MOM! not just a mother to a child taken away too soon....but a mother to another child who needs me EVERYDAY ALL DAY!!!
Before This little guy, there was our sweet daughter.......
Well, lets see I had my daughter! No cheers please................ Then she died from Trisomy 13, 6 days later. I dont understand I see everything about Trisomy 13 except how is NOT detected. See, my daughter having this was not any way shape nor form detected. The doctors up until the moment she came out and wasnt breathing said she was a healthy normal baby. NO RED FLAGS NO SIGNS OF DISTRESS! It was a surprise to all of us especially me and her father. Seeing how I dont know how to put pics on here---- here is my myspacelink myspace.com/the_hooker66602
so you can see my daughter!