In a heartbeat ~ a life is stilled, a dream dies, and Heaven becomes amazingly real.


My name is Monika and im a mommy to Angels.

I joined Baby-Gaga in year 2008 ;) when i assumed that i am pregnant...well i truly was.

I had a perfect start of pregnancy,then the best surprise when i found out i am carrying twins,and later that they are identical twin girls.

I LOVED being pregnant,feeling you move,planning your nursery,dreaming of our future.
Due to complications i was set on strick bedrest in December..that was a great time, with my first and last thing in the day;listening to my babies heartbeats..

Daddy was in love with you two from the very begining, he used to read them good night stories like bambi, the king of the jungle and cindarella...it was like tehy heard him, their kick became intense and then softer, like they went to sleep.

Sadly due to my weak cervix they were born way to soon. On February 5th,2008 two beautifull girls came into this world, both not weighing more than 500 grams.

Angelina was born at 19:45 weighing 500 grams and was 34 cm long, an Jana Ina at 20:05 weighing 470 grams and was 32 cm long.

Jana Ina was brought to me round 5 am in the morning ( Feb. 6th), with no chance to live... she passed away in my arms not even one hour later.

Angelina was a real warrior, she was the NICU miracle and was fighting against all odds for the longest 10 days in my life. she made her last breath in my arms, on February 15th, in the evening...

October 30th.
from November 1. 2009



if you PT me, atleast stop by and say hi.

Thank you so much!