I am 23 and happily married to my one and only. We resently lost our first child. he was a strong baby boy. We don't know when we will try again. I know that we both need time and then we will see what's next.

Here something:

Take devastating loss, turn it into healthy grief and find progressive healing

Ingredients Experienced:
14 days of numbness, wishing it was all a dream
A dash of phone calls & emails to inform others of your loss
1 week of memorial planning
1 day of smiling
2 days of feeling guilty for smiling
6 months of adjusting to your new normal
9 months of a roller coaster ride through grief
3-4 weeks of Anger
5 months of Tears
1 month of asking Why Me?
2 weeks of Anxiety
3 days of Denial
3 months of Depression
A little laughter, then back to sad again
Just before the 1st year Angel~ Versary, grab 1 month of Depression
Now that you’ve made it to 1 year you may have had
Several months of Sadness
A few weeks of Fear
Time to gain Compassion
A few months to find Acceptance
And an Unlimited amount of missing your angel
With the above ingredients you can now start preparing for Healthy Grieving
Mix in many months of counseling and/or talking with those who understand. Blend in being able to share your story without becoming teary eyed. Set aside moments for brief meltdowns, and then stir in the strength to get up and keep going. Add in the possibilities of having more children, knowing your angel will never be replaced. Throw in a pinch of fear to try again. Mix in the realization that there will be no crawling, first steps, first day of school, or graduation. Add the comfort that your angel will never know sickness, rejection, or the pains of this world. Set aside both happy and sad tears and know it’s still ok to cry. Mix in life without your angel then sprinkle in precious memories. Cover with hope that your faith will provide you the strength to continue into progressive healing.
Progressive Healing is a constant process, so hold on to your memories, cherish your keepsakes, and never be uncomfortable to say “I Have My Very Own Angel”

*Disclaimer: This recipe was put together to encourage those who have suffered a loss.
Time measurements may vary, and examples given may differ. This is a general recipe put together based on conversations with numerous women who have experienced pregnancy or infant loss.

It'd be nice if you stopped by the thread every now and then, at least to let us know how you're doing. If it hurts to post in the thread, though, I understand. When I lost my twins I couldn't look at the October '08 thread.
I'm sorry you don't like being back at work.   I'm glad you have some answers, though. That brings closure, and that's a huge step to recovery.