Hello! My name is Kelly. On April 11th 2009, I found out I was pregnant. The pregnancy was going well. I was tired all the time but I handled it. No morning sickness, just heartburn. On May 3rd, I bled a little bit. More than a spot, it had me worried. I just turned 7 weeks. So I called my doctor and they wanted me in for an ultrasound. So I came in and they did an ultrasound and said the baby was only 5 weeks. They couldn't see anything because it was too early. Either I miscalculated my last period or something was wrong. I told them I knew the date of conception, there could only be one date it happened. So they sent me for an HCG. Went right after the ultrasound. When I got home, I noticed there was more blood. For the rest of the night, there was blood. Then the nurse calls me the next morning and tells me my HCG is only 791. Says it could still be early in my pregnancy. I left some hope. Then, on May 5th around 7:30pm, I felt the gush. I knew I had miscarried my baby. It was a tough time for me. To me, no matter how many children I have in the future, that little baby will ALWAYS be my first child.



"Have you ever really loved an angel
Once you have you'll never be the same again
Have you ever had to let go of an angel
Say goodbye
Let 'em fly
My Angel
My best friend"



"Can it be
That you are my forever love
And you are watching over me from up above?
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are"








MY FAMILY:

My new niece! Kenadie Ireland






My Nephew David James





Updates:

2009
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4/11- BFP!
5/3- Started bleeding
5/5- Miscarriage
5/15- Trying to Concieve
6/23- No AF yet, calling doctor
6/24- Started Provera... 10 Days
7/3- Ended Provera...waiting on AF
7/9- Finally got AF. Will start tracking ovulation again!
7/14- AF is almost gone, just a few spots! Ready to start track ovulation YESS!
7/15- AF is officially gone!! Test for ovulation again.
7/28- Going for ultrasound eventually. Not ovulating yet
8/3- Ultrasound normal
8/4- Positive Ovulation!
8/6- Countdown to pregnancy test. 12 days and counting!!
8/11- VERY faint positive on early detection test. Not getting excited but hopeful!
8/11- Countdown to HPT- 7 days!
8/13- Countdown to HPT- 5 days!
8/17- Think I had implantation bleeding today! Countdown to HPT- 1 day
8/18- AF showed. DAMN! Trying again..
8/23- AF almost gone. Going to get ready for ovulation again. Baby Dust please!!
8/24- Af is gone! Testing ov again. I think it will be on 9/14. We'll see if I'm right!
9/5- Positive ov test. Unable to BD   AF expected on 9/18/09
9/22- Positive ov. test again.
10/7- AF showed up! I WILL GET PREGNANT THIS MONTH!!!
10/13- Af ended. Waiting on ovulation. I am trying to stay positive for a positive! 
10/22- Positive ovulation test. Unable to BD again   Don't know how much moreI can take
11/5- AF Showed
11/19- Ovulation. Countdown to HPT -14 days!!
11/22-Countdown -11 days!
12/4- AF expected today, nothing so far but BFNs. *fingers crossed*
12/7- AF showed  
12/21- My Angel baby's due date. Ovulation!

2010
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1/6- AF showed...will this be my year???
1/21- Ovulated!
2/7- AF Showed...  
2/23- Ovulated..unable to BD this month.
3/12- AF.....
4/9- AF  
5/4- Went to doctor. I have gallbladder issues and have to take a break from TTC. I need my gallbladder out, BP down, and weight down before I can continue. August should be a good month to try again!!
5/5/10- My baby Connor's anniversary as an angel. I MISS YOU EVERYDAY! <3
5/31- I lost 13 pounds! This will definitely help TTC!
6/15- Surgery is tomorrow. I will update as soon as I can.  
6/19- Very short AF
7/4- Almost positive Ovulation!! Countdown to HPT, 14 days!
7/9- Countdown to HPT, 9 days!
7/19- AF Showed  
7/21- Day 3 of cycle and took a free FR fertility test, came back normal  
8/5- Ovulation coming up, never got a positive. Did the BD anyway
8/19- AF spotting??
8/19- Spotting disappeared.
8/26- Still waiting on period!!
9/5- Still no period!!
9/14- Almost positive OV
9/16- Negative OV, so I did BD twice LOL
9/26- AF shows  
10/12- Doctor called, said I am insulin resistant. Need to wait a month while I'm on medication. Says this is why I am not getting pregnant. Once I am on the meds, should be fine. Fertility work up came back normal.
10/17- Started Meds. Tracking for next month.
11/1- Told I have to take a break from TTC until meds its way through my system, which will take at least 3 months.... Devestated
11/30- No ovulation, no period. Doctor said it could be a side effect of the Metformin, so started Provera today.
12/13- Bleeding from Provera finally showed up. Ouch!
12/19- Bleeding stopped.

2011
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1/10- AF shows on her own!! I hope to ovulate on time. This year will be my year!!  
1/14- AF over
1/28- OB appointment. Lost another 10 pounds! Awaiting AF to start tracking ovulation
2/14- AF is 7 days late   I wish it would come already so I can track ov!  
2/19- AF 12 days late!! Come on...  
3/10- Started Provera, AGAIN. No AF since 1/10. Up Metformin to 3 pills a day.
3/20- Last day of Provera. Now waiting on AF and ovulation!
3/23- AF shows! Expected ov is 4/6..let's hope!!
3/29- AF almost over.
3/30- AF gone!!
3/31- Anniversary  
4/15- Positive ovulation..countdown to testing -14 days!
4/29- AF arrives
5/5- 2 years since my angel went to heaven.. :'(
7/9- AF
8/14- Taking a break from ttc, due to health issues. As soon as doctor figures it out, I can resume.
9/17- Day one of Provera
10/5- AF shows  
10/7- CD 3 .. First round of Clomid starts. 50 mg.
10/11- Clomid round one ends.
10/12- My birthday!
10/26- CD 21
10/28- Dr. calls. Says levels from Clomid are low. Start Provera on day 28 and up clomid dose to 100mg.
11/1- CD 28. Start Provera and wait for AF.
11/10- End Provera.
11/11- CD 1
11/13- CD 3- Start Clomid round 2 (100 mg)
11/26- Positive ovulation test!
12/10- HPT test date!

2012
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1/10- AF shows
2/5- AF shows
2/9- -50lbs!
2/20- -55lbs
2/27- Taking a long TTC break, starting BC to heal my body
3/4- Started BC. AF shows on her own
5/5- My angel has been in heaven for 3 years today  
5/20- -65lbs
6/4- Admitted to hospital
6/12- Discharged
6-13- Stopped taking BC. Resume TTC. AF Showed up lol
6/14- -70lbs!
7/4- Pos ov
7/14- AF shows
10/23- AF Shows
10/31- 80 lbs gone!
11/8- Positive Ovulation
11/21- Pink spotting
11/22- AF shows. Hopefully next month! -81 lbs! I think possible chemical

2013
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1/16- No ovulation for second month in a row. -86 lbs.
1/19- My best friend passes away  
1/30- -90lbs!
3/10- AF showed for the first time in a while! I will be on a TTC break indefinitely and have started the BC pills again on Valentines Day.

thank you!