My name is Kaitlyn. As of July 10th, I am 22 years old. I am struggling to find myself in this thing called LIFE. I believe since the loss of my baby, I have seen and have a whole different perspective on everything life has to offer. I am currently on a goal to make myself happy. I dropped out of college and am trying to get into Medix School for Radiology. One day I hope to work in a hospital like the Children's Hospital of DC. I would to help babies and children who are need. Right now I work full time at a Ford dealership and I work part time at Pump It Up. Also, when I have more time to focus on things other then school and two jobs, I'd love to start a campaign or maybe a program in hospitals for mothers of still born babies/neonatal deaths. I don't think the peopole who go through situations like this are well educated on the situation. I know I wasn't and I know many people who try to comfort me have no clue either. I want to give these women/families proper things they need to be comforted. As well as information on what is to take place during and after the birth. I was left out in the dark on so many things. And that is not something you should ever look back on and regret. This is one of my goals I'd like to achieve in the next few years!






I am a lover and fighter. I can talk too much and other times I have nothing to say. I am shy at first but I open up fast. I stand up for what I believe in. I want to travel the world. I am simple but complicated just all bundled into one. I like to go out with my girls and have a good time. But I also like to have a movie/chill night in. I am a die hard Raven's fan and I am stoked that FOOTBALL SEASON HAS BEGAN!!!!!  


I found out I was pregnant with my first child in February 2009 but gained her as an angel on May 19th, 2009 at 20 weeks gestation. I miss Jordyn soooo much. There isn't a day that goes by that I do not think about her and wish she was still here with us. She has brought light to my eyes and made me truly discover what life is all about. I never for once thought this would happen to me, EVER.

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At my second trimester ultrasound on May 11th, I was told that her heart did not form properly which is causing there to be no blood flow to the left side of the heart. This was causing fluid to back up inside her and I also did not have enough amniotic fluid. She was very swollen which is a sign that she was going to pass soon.

She passed away on May 18th, 2009. I gave birth to her on May 19th at 1:46am, weighing 14 ounces. While my pregnancy was not planned, it was the best thing and the happiest thing in my life. I have never been so happy then I was in those 5 months. She was everything to me. And now my everything is gone. </3

It has been the worst experience of my entire life. Each day is different. Some days I feel like it literally just happened. Other days I am peace with the fact she is in Heaven and not suffering. I miss my baby tons though. I hope she can give me the strength to get through all this soon. <3


Jordyn Marie - Born sleeping on May 19th, 2009 at 1:46am. 14 ounces. 20 weeks.










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She was so beautiful. I know how hard it is to get on with living after losing your child. I'm still figuring it out myself. It's never going to be normal again. Just a new normal. & to quote someone in my support group, "This new normal sucks."

Much love. Be strong.