My name is Megan, and my screen name, Meggera, was my nickname in high school that has kind of stuck with me through the years now. Oh and the '007' at the end is the year that I graduated from high school. Why did I throw in that random bit of information? Because alot of people on websites always ask me lots of questions about my username and it gets tiring after hearing the same ones over and over.



Anyway, I just celebrated my 20th birthday on July 3rd, and I feel very lucky to of made it this far. My first child was due October 4th of this year, but unfortunately my boyfriend and I lost her on May 16th, just a few days before hitting the 5 month mark in my pregnancy. There was an infection that found its way into my bloodstream and being of having low iron, my blood wasn't able to keep the infection out, which caused me to miscarry. So the doctors induced labor after confirming in an ultrasound that there was no fetal heartbeat, and at 6:13 pm, Carleigh Hope was delivered. She weighed about 11 oz and was 10 inches long, there was nothing physically wrong with her as far as the doctors could tell, and shortly after delivering her they brought her back into the room so that my boyfriend and I could hold her for a few minutes. It was bittersweet really, I'm glad that I was able to hold her in my arms for those short few minutes, but it pains me that I couldn't have done anything to protect and save her. Also after we had our time with her, the nurses allowed everyone else into my room to see us and Carleigh.

On top of having the infection, and losing alot of blood, I had severe bowel issues, along with being anemic, and having a temperature of about 103 or 104. Two days before the 16th I went to the hospital because I didn't feel well, and was really dehydrated even though I had been drinking enough fluids. They never figured it out when I was there the first time and in the back of my mind I always think about, what if they would have noticed something when I was there the first time and not the second time on the 15th; could they have done something to save both Carleigh and me? But the thing is, I'll never know now. I don't trust the hospital in my city at all anymore, because not only did they not do what they were supposed to with me and my pregnancy, but they messed up with my mom too. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful for my life and I'm very happy that the doctors saved me, but I'm angry that they couldn't save my daughter, and then they turn around and don't keep my mom in the hospital overnight when they needed to.



Every single day that passes me by I think about Carleigh and think about what my life would have been like if I were still carrying her, and what it would be like if she were actually born healthy and full of life. I'm still quite angry that I lost her, and every day I seem to miss her even more, and my love for my daughter will never run dry. I just wish that I would've gotten to raise her. Even though the pain of losing Carleigh is still very sharp, it gets easier with each passing day. I never knew how much love that my own mother had for me because I was her daughter, but now I understand.

And I know having another baby will never replace Carleigh, but the idea of giving her a little brother or sister is wonderful. In the future my boyfriend and I would like to try to have another baby, and this time we're going to a better hospital, it's out of town, but it'll be worth the drive. We're currently in the process of getting our own apartment, and I'm trying to get a job so that we'll have two incomes instead of just him working. But yeah, that's pretty much my life at the moment. I'll probably update this alot depending on things that happen and such.

Rest In Peace
Carleigh Hope Gamblin
Daughter
May 16, 2009

Judy Lee Thatcher
Mother
August 14, 1959 - August 1, 2009

Bahaa, he treats me soo well.
I thought i was pregnant again.
And, he was there for me he made me feel sucuare.
And, he treats me likea princess.
OMFGG he gave me a 10 k white gold ring with real dimonds and a jewl in the middle and my intinals ingravedfor homecomming.
I think its ridclious and I felt badd.
Butt, I am happy that yall bought your funiture and what not and yall are going to startget your own place.(:

Yeah, my job sucks too.
My first paycheck was 89 for 13 hours. D:
What does he do for living?
And thats good they are giving him more hours (: