Heyy I'm Meredith. Im 19 as of 11/16, and I'm a full time college student, part-time restaurant host. I found out recently I am pregnant. I have many mixed feelings about it, but I'm growing to love my baby more and more everyday. Not really on here for confrontation, just looking for friends to hopefully grow with (no pun intended;). The father of my child is in and out of my life as he pleases, and toys with my heart like a 7 year oldwith a Nintendo DS. Honestly, I'm a really loving, caring person, and I'm very protective of my loved ones. I love to listen all different kinds of music, I dabble in the piano, enjoy Japanese & Egyptian culture, and I love a good flick. I am proud of being bi-racial, puerto rican & black, but have friends of all cultures all over. I love to travel and dance randomly...
Hope everyones pregnancy is going well....
Love always,
Mere


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Nov:8:09
.: Ever since I went to the E.R. yesterday for seeing blood I've been in constant thought. I was told I am experiencing threanented miscarriage. There is a 50% chance nothing will happen to me,but there is 50% chance that my baby won't survive. Thedoctorcame in, told me briefly and left the room.He had no remorse or compassion for me, but I'm sure he tells about20 women thisaweek.I don't quite know how to feel about my pregnancy already, but I've been feeling so attached recently to my little oneliving in my tummy. I know how much a baby will affect my life, but its my child; my angel, my baby.I saw it moving when it was very,very little, almost microscopic. I felt butterflies before I was told I would feel them. Its my baby now, and I don't think I could bare losing them now. I'm so close to knowing the gender of my baby, so close to feeling quickening. To lose them now would truly be to lose a part of me. But now I'm feeling like I might not be worthy enough to have them.....
My ex-boyfriend toldmelast night he doesnt feel that we will work out. Feeling like I'm not worthy of anything...
Mere


Oct:14:09
.:So Im expecting. I can't say that I am completely estatic although I can say that I am quite scared and nervous.. The father of my child (I so despise the name baby daddy) is somewhat supportive I guess. I am fearful that I will have to do this all by myself, but my mother did it, so hopefully I can follow in her footsteps if needed. I really am a loving caring person, although alot of times people take advantage of my kindness. so I have recently become a little bit more reserved.... So far its been a bumpy and nauesating ride...The only problem I forsee I will have during my pregnancy is major stress...I am due May 11, 2010.

I hope to meet alot of caring and helpful parents on here, as this is my first child!
Many Blessings,
xo:MeRe x

"...do i seem like a lost cause? i just hate coming off as the stereotypical teenage mom case, you know? we all dont just want to end up on welfare, i had dreams...now they are deferred...not destroyed..."M. Smith




Sept|4|2009-Missed Period
Sept|12|2009-Took a Test[Positive]
Oct|12|2009-First Ultrasound
Oct|26|2009-Second Trimester Starts
Nov|8|2009-E.R. visit. bloody ruined underwear at work..diagonis:threatened miscarrage 50% chance of my baby surviving. feeling scared, lost and hurt...

try not to be too scared. i had the same thing happen to me. I just started college and i got pregnant with my son. It gets hard at times but its worth it. I went through a lot of stress to with his sperm donor. Just keep your friends by your side they will help you when you are upset and just think about the cute little baby you get to meet =] I got preggo @ 18 and had my son when i was 19. Now im 20 going on 21 and i have my new baby on the way and im getting married in 10 days! not to the guy who fathered my son but someone wayyy better. if your babys father isnt man enough to help you whatever. sometimes its better without having a loser around your child I know its the case for me.
good luck =]