My name is Krista and my boyfriends name is LeRon, On september 22, 2009, we found out i was pregnant with our first baby together, and on October 30,2009 we found out that our little ones heart stopped when i was 8 wks pregnant. It was nothing i did, it just happened, and it is killin us to not know what did it. I was perfectly healthy but the baby had issues so we guess. We had the baby removed from me on November 5th, and it is hard for the both of us, but it is a lot harder for me because i was attached to the baby already, not a day goes by that i don't think about my lil "man".The loss hasn't completely hit Daddy yet because he is too wrapped up in his son that was born October 9, 2009 with his exgirlfriend that he was with when him and i broke up in January. It kills me to know that Daddy is too worried about his son to even take the time to think about the baby we lost. It makes me feel like my baby wasn't good enough for him because it is his second child. We have been together for almost two years on and off, and the times have been a mix between good times and bad times, happy and sad times, but hey that is every relationship right? You gotta learn to take the good with the bad, and see an imperfect person perfectly. He has always been there for me when i needed him the most whether we were a couple or not. Yes we have been on and off because of complications, butnever were we officially over and done with each other. He is my everything and i am his! This is a very hard situation for the both of us, but we are going to do what we have to do to get through it.

To my Lil "Man",
I miss you more and more each day! The pain from losing you will never go away. Everyone tells me it takes time, but they don't get what it feels like to know that there was a possibility in me never getting pregnant and then finding out i was pregnant with you. They don't know the joy you brought to my life. The complete feeling you gave me just to know i had an unconditional love coming from someone for the first time in my life. I had a love that only a mother would get from their child. And i finally got to feel what it was like to Love a baby of my own, and know that i helpedcreate you! You were a part of me, and when you grew your wings a part of me went with you! You will always be my first baby and my angel baby! Mommy will always remember you and will always be here for you! But know that you are not up there alone! You have friends and family up there with you taking care of you! I love you so much lil Man!


Important Dates
September 17- home test +
September 21- MP
September 21-Baby Daddy bought me a Promise Ring 
September 22- Walk in clinic test confirmed pregnancy due date may 28th 
October 8- First ultrasound due date changed to June 2nd
October 19- Drs appointment for paper work
October 27- Bloodwork done
October 28- Ring on a string predicts im having a boy
October 30- hospitalized for blood clots Second ultrasound-No heartbeat
November 3- Dr confirmed baby died
November 5- D&C to have baby removed

Coming up-
November 9-Second Ultrasound Canceled

1st Trimester
1-4 weeks = 1 month - Complete
5-8 weeks = 2 months -Complete 8th week baby died=(
9-13 weeks = 3 months - 9wks 2 days found out baby died at 8 wks

Good luck, let me know how things go for you