alllast visit: 23rd Aug '11member since: Nov 9th 2010about me:
I JOINED THIS WEBSITE A FEW MONTHS AGO, BACK THEN I WAS DUE JULY 1ST 2011, IN MY 11TH WEEK I FOUND OUT I MISCARRIED. MY HEART WAS BROKE. I LAYED ON THE EXAM TABLE TRYING TO FIGHT THE TEARS WITH QUIVERING LIPS, TRYING TO BE STRONG AND CONVINCE MYSELF THAT OUR BABY WAS FINE. OUR BABY WAS NOT FINE, I LEARNED THAT OUR BABY STOPPED GROWING AT 6 WEEKS. MY HEART HASN'T HEALED, I THINK ABOUT OUR BABY MORE THAN ANYONE KNOWS, THE WORDS AND ACTIONS OF OTHERS ARE APPRECIATED, BUT NOT ENOUGH TO COMFORT THE HOLE IN MY HEART. I'VE BEEN TOLD I AM YOUNG AND CAN TRY AGAIN, BUT THE PAIN IS NOT SOMETHING I CAN MOVE ON FROM JUST YET, IT HURTS. I REMEMBER EVERY ARGUMENT I'VE HAD WHEN PREGNANT, EVERY BAD DECISION AND HAVE SOME GUILT. I AM A FIRM BELIEVER THAT GOD HAS REASONS FOR THINGS LIKE THIS, SO I ACCEPT IT AND PRAY THAT IT WAS A GOOD REASON. FOR NOW MY HEART, MIND, BODY AND SOUL IS HEALING.
Its going good. I've been feeling alot better and I've even had some energy. LOL I had my first appt last week and we got an ultrasound. It was nice, and I'm measuring right to the day I'm supposed to Good luck with yours next week
MamaGoneMad
