alllast visit: 2 days agomember since: Jun 29th 2011about me:
My life is complicated. I've had to grow up fast due to certain circumstances in my life. I was adopted at the age of two into a white home and life growing up was complicated. I became a young mom at 16. I found out a couple weeks after I got married to a soldier on the day after I turned 17. I had my little girl March 30, 2008. We were living in Germany at the time. I had given up high school during my junior year so my "husband" could see his daughter before he deployed. After he came back from a 1 year deployment we got pregnant again shortly after with a little boy who was supposed to be born around May 6th but I had complications with my pregnancy. It started out with me going to a regular check up and they told me I had placenta previa, which I guess isn't too uncommon. They put me on bed rest and said it should change but if it didn't I would have to have a c-section. Well That previa turned into an abruption and I ended up in the hospital. I stayed pregnant in the hospital for two weeks but my son got too sick and they had to do an emergency c-section. He was born February 22nd 2010, 2 1/2 months early. He spent the first 63 days of his life in the hospital. It was the scariest thing I ever had to go through. That summer I lost my mother to ovarian cancer. She was my best friend and I miss her so much! After my mom passed, we returned to the states in October. My husband and I ended up splitting up and were divorced in November of 2011. My whole life has been hard. I have struggled with so much but being a mother has changed my life totally. If I didn't have my kids I don't know where I would be. They push me to keep going when I feel like I can't anymore. They are why I get out of bed in the morning. I love them to the fullest. I may not be a perfect mom. but I try my damn hardest to be there for them. I am now with a man who loves and cares about me and my children. He also has two kids and they are just adorable. We are engaged to be married sometime this year and we just recently lost a baby together. It's the hardest thing ever but our baby is in a better place now. I come and go on here but I love this site and the women on it, so feel free to hit me up or pt me. =)
NicoleKMK
