I just turned 30 in June, and I'm a little more than halfway to having a son. My daughter will be 12 this month, and needless to say, I am scared sh*tless. I feel like I'm just going through the motions because I'm supposed to... I like to plan for things and my little guy was unexpected. His Father and I have been in a long distance relationship for two and a half years. I love that man dearly, but am terrified of things changing once the baby is born, I will be moving away from my home, family and friends to live with him because he has a great career. Everyone on this site seems so happy and bubbly and carefree, I guess that's why I havent joined until now. Isn't there anyone else who feels like I do?